13/09/2009

now cold days draw closer.

winter days at newbo beach
cold hands and flustered cheeks
tomorrow won't come and
today only matters

seagulls shit and it lands by our feet
Our hips collide as we walk down the street
the chips fall hot down our throat
these are the Memories that come but (hopefully) never go.

11/09/2009

Wandering/Wondering.

I've been wandering around my mind recently, wondering exactly what i want to do and where i want to be in my future. Does anybody ever really know? I think it's so hard to make definitive choices concerning your future and your life, i don't think i know exactly what i want to do though i have vague ideas.
I know that i will emigrate to the us. This country just drains me, it's not what i thought it was and now i need out.
Manhattan would be the ideal place, i reckon, though i've never been. I think it;s because of woody allens film of the same name. He shows the place in such a great light; it seems to hold in its grasp some mystical objet a that my desire longs for.

I go back to university soon, 2 weeks in fact. It seems like i've been off for so long, and now it;s just dragging and boring. I finished on, i think, the 5th of june, therefore i've had near enough 4 months off. The highlight obviously being my trip to san francisco but other than that it's been tedious and money is running short.
On the wirral there isn't much to do.

02/09/2009

Morning.

writing rambling haiku
in a chocolatey bed
listening to the current affairs

not much happening
insulin injections and
opening blinds blank stares.

late evening blues
bedtime beckons and i reckon
tomorrow aint so soon

16/08/2009

her morning eyes are droopy yet
as radiant as a hazel sun
i wake to a noumenous sight
so beautiful, and mesmerising
when she's gone there is no rain or sunshine
nothing at all
in the dark her shape is curved and stunning
i blend into it
comforting myself with flesh

13/08/2009

Oh, My God.

She's the only God i pray to
Early in the morning, when the sun rises
Through four more times a day
Keeping me safe from sin
I keep my faith and there are no surprises

28/07/2009

Antichrist

So i went to see von Triers new film Antichrist on friday with Chris. The reviews and rumous i had heard got me pretty excited and pretty nervous at the same time about it. Hearing that it was booed badly at cannes and that it was essentially just a gorefest didn't make me think lets not see this but made me want to see it more, just like how i want to go to see Colin a new zombie film made for a mere £45 when it comes out in october.
So we arrived at the cinema and there was a disclaimer form placed next to the till to warn viewers that what they were about to see was rated 18 for a reason, and it stated this reasons with an A4 sized page of the different things that occur in the film. How good, i thought, it is going to be and it must be for there to be a disclaiimer form before you see it.
It is the story of a man and wife who lose their child during an act of coitus. It deals with the the trauma and emotions these parents must go through. To recover they retreat to a safe haven called 'eden'. Obviously this is a reference to Christian religion and i feel this is what the film is about. The film is about an Anti-eden, a paradise that is not what the bible described as made by god but rather one which was made and is ruled by satan.

07/05/2009